Hello my old friend.
It's been so long since I've written anything for myself. Almost a year of not being here makes it feel uncomfortably unfamiliar. What started as a dumping ground for emotions became something I was proud off. Personally, I'm quite amazed at what I had written, the links made between my emotions to something common in day to day life.
Looking back at many of my posts, I still could relate to them. I could recall the events that had taken place and spurred me to write them. I could understand them. This is how me communicate with me. The inner voice of me talking to myself, struggling to make sense of the complex world of emotions.
It has been increasingly difficult to listen to my inner voice recently.
When was the last time I sat down and asked myself how I was feeling?
What event had evoked unexplainable emotions within that I needed to unpack?
Who could I turn to help me unlock a door without a key?
Just today, a question was asked.
If you could master a skill, what skill would that be?
After some thought, my answer was effective communication.
But how do I communicate with others?
I am finding it extremely difficult to communicate with myself, let alone with others.
The feeling of nervousness and messiness are apparent when I try to make a point. Trying to verbalise ideas and thought processes always fails.
My only consolation is ... ... I wasn't the only one who said that.
