It has been a long time since I wrote here.
A break of four months, should be sufficient time for me to organise my thoughts and life right?
I guessed not.
I feel that I keep hitting a replay button.
I am back to where I am used to be, lost and unmotivated.
There have been many things that I wanted to say or do, but nothing seems done. I keep telling myself that I need to do this or that, I want to learn new things now that I have the time, or I should use what I learnt to make things worthwhile.
Nothing has happened.
A new chapter of my life has began a long time ago. A milestone has been crossed almost a year ago, where the chapter closes and a new one begins. Although off to a rocky beginning of a new chapter, I am barely a page in. The me from four months ago is as unaccomplished as the me four months older. Most of my peers are building up to the climax of their life chapters, but I am stuck and unmoving.
The lack of motivation is real, I get distracted and stare into space often.
A break of four months, should be sufficient time for me to organise my thoughts and life right?
I guessed not.
I feel that I keep hitting a replay button.
I am back to where I am used to be, lost and unmotivated.
There have been many things that I wanted to say or do, but nothing seems done. I keep telling myself that I need to do this or that, I want to learn new things now that I have the time, or I should use what I learnt to make things worthwhile.
Nothing has happened.
A new chapter of my life has began a long time ago. A milestone has been crossed almost a year ago, where the chapter closes and a new one begins. Although off to a rocky beginning of a new chapter, I am barely a page in. The me from four months ago is as unaccomplished as the me four months older. Most of my peers are building up to the climax of their life chapters, but I am stuck and unmoving.
Hitting the replay button once again, a memory floats by.
A friend, who once read my previous entries, mentioned that many of my posts were usually about a similar topic - the lack of a goal and a dream. Reading back the past ninety posts, I realised that this is true. Many of the previous posts were about the lack of motivation, escaping reality, being lost, insecure and unsure about what I wanted to do with my life.
What if I could rewind time ?
Would that change anything ?
Or would everything replay itself once again ?
A friend, who once read my previous entries, mentioned that many of my posts were usually about a similar topic - the lack of a goal and a dream. Reading back the past ninety posts, I realised that this is true. Many of the previous posts were about the lack of motivation, escaping reality, being lost, insecure and unsure about what I wanted to do with my life.
What if I could rewind time ?
Would that change anything ?
Or would everything replay itself once again ?
