Peppero Day! Oops, being randomz, as usual...
Have you ever felt the need and want to just release the stress and anxiety and not care about anything at all? Or to not give a worry about what should be done and can be done?
Have you ever wish and hope that things are different? And that if has to happen, they prepare you for it instead of it coming head on unknowingly?
Then again, I doubt I will be prepared for anything when it comes to be even if I am given a heads up on things. I'm such a procrastinator. And I don't want to be faced with such things to begin with.
Things are getting really really overwhelming.
There are too many things happening at the same time that I just want to drop everything and let go. I wanna be free and not be tied down by the chains of school and life. Living life and surviving it is tiring enough for me, what more with the addition of school and exams bring? School and I are really not meant for each other. Maybe just studying for general.
I've always wondered what would have happened if I chose my own part to take, to do the things that I really like and enjoy. Then again, what do I really like?
I want to give up, but it is already coming to the end of the year. If i give up now, its a year worth of wasted efforts, tears and stress. But, thinking about things after this year is done, I feel more overwhelmed and uncertain about things I am doing. Trying so hard to do my best, but is it going to be worth it? Will my effort pay off?
I think I'm ranting already...
Am I overwhelming you?
