Don't lose your temper, don't.
It is not worth it, it isn't going to make a difference.
Control your temper, control.
You have no right to lose your temper.
Just tolerate it, tolerate.
But it is easier said than done.
Sometimes when you are feeling so angry, or upset over certain issues that one feels like just cussing out loud. Sure, it isn't the most rational thing to do, yet I am just tempted to do it, to prove that you shouldn't mess with me. Scream my head off, let the anger flow freely in my veins. Burn anything that dare provoke me and stand in my way. Be violent, sarcastic and mean for once. That's a drastic and maybe a good change for once.
But it's so not me.
Even if I do, I am going to get into a whole load of trouble, making matters worse.
When everything comes crashing towards you, you can't say anything, there's no time to react at all. All you can do is be drown in this crazy sea of emotions and blame. All you can do is listen, that's all. I can't talk back, I will only get scolded and blame more. It wasn't even my fault to begin with. But I will just have to deal with it, there's no escaping it. Tolerate it and hope that it will blow away soon. Tolerate it and pretend that it doesn't really bother me, but it does. Tolerate it and ignore it, but it still hurts so much.
When such things happens, I'm usually the first one to say sorry. But the "sorry" said isn't genuine. Saying sorry does not always make things better. They can seem better and the problem seems solve, but the resentment still persists and engraved into memory. Such a blame is hard to erase, hard to forget. The worst about such situations are that they are never fully resolved. They are able to repeat themselves and comes back to haunt. Try to package the hurt and blame away, only to find it reopening up again with greater brute force.
Everyone has a temper.
But why can't everyone have tolerance too?
