One step forward, inching your way closer to your goal.
Two steps back, you find yourself getting further.
Put a step forward with much difficulty, only to find yourself being pulled back by obstacles, by the past, by almost anything that can reach you. Nope, I did not get the phrase wrong. Most would believe in two steps forward and a step back, to keep yourself in check. That isn't always the case, at least I don't think so, for me at least.
If that's the case, there is no use right?
With every step you take, you only fall behind. I would rather stay put and be stationary, not moving front not moving back. In theory it should work, but things doesn't work that way in reality. Everyone else is moving forward, heading towards their clear goal, and here I am just waiting for things to happen. You will get left behind, get trampled upon, get lost in the sea of emptiness and nothingness. Even if I try to make things happen, I end up further away than before. Finding courage to move forward is no easy task. I've place a foot forward, only to let it be stepped on and shove back more than the step that I have painstakingly taken.
Trying so hard every time, only to come head first into failure. There's a part of me that wants to give up. There doesn't seem to be a reason for me to continue to try so hard. I'm tired, lifeless and lost, drowning in the sea of the success of others, trying to find a place in society. I've lost my objective in life, then maybe there wasn't even one to begin with. I can put in all my effort, but it seems fruitless.
Leaning forward to disappointment.
Looking forward to things but only to be disappointed.
As with every difficult step that was taken, I only find myself heading in the opposite direction, the wrong direction.
