By the Sidelines... ...

Don't get involved.

Don't be a busybody.

Just solve your own problems.

Keep quiet, don't speak, don't tell.

Stay by the sidelines.

That seems like the easiest way to live a life, isn't it? The simplest motto in life. It's a totally "mind-your-own-business" kind of attitude. Do the things that are crucial to your life only. Do what's the best for yourself. Why care about others? They mean you no good. They only snatch away your opportunities and push you even further down. Till now, Darwin's theory of evolution remains true. Only the strongest of species will survive. As you grow up, you will learn that only the most "selfish" in this sense will survive in this close to heartless competitive world. Fight for yourself, want the best for yourself. Why bother yourself with things that don't directly affect you? Only deal with the things related to you or when it comes to you. Just... ...do things your way. 

Is it even possible? Seems like it isn't, or just for me at least.

People are going to view you as a selfish and self-centered person. How they view you, is it important? Should I really care? You can choose not to care, ignore those looks people are giving you and fend for yourself. Fight for yourself, no one else. But... can you really ignore it? Can you really live your life, being alone in this world. Are you able to live solely as a loner? To live with you and yourself against the unknown world who is going to to view judge and test you for all its worth? Can you managed?

That's the sad truth about life.

You got to live it the hard way to enjoy it.

Staying by the sidelines will bring you nowhere. 

An Un-listened Listener

Strains of music from the stereo floats through the air, 

Accompanied by the soft melodious chirping outside the window.

A phone rings and a conversation is held.

The same phone relights, a message is received and replied.

A voice calls out to me, and I follow it without questioning.

Listen to these sounds of life and be a listener. Listen to the sound of nature, listen to the human speech, listen to the vent of other humans. You have two ears but one mouth for a reason. You should listen more than you speak. Be a good friend, a good sister and daughter, and listen to the troubles of others, comforting them when you need to. Just listen, it makes  life so much easier and more pleasant for both yourself and the teller. The latter will be more comfortable than the listening former, who just listens, hoping it will dwell over fast.

As you can guess, I am a listener. To such an extent that I have done majority listening in my life, and hardly being listened to at all. A listening ear, a comforting hug and an understanding smile, just talk and I will listen. Vent your frustrations and anger, the listener  in me will sit by you till the storms calm.

But, now who is going to help me with my own chaotic sea of emotions and troubles? A listener needs someone to listen too. I'm just a human, with two ears and a hardly ever used mouth. I need someone to talk to, to lean on, and someone to return the comfort that I have given to others. Just someone who will hug me and tell me everything's going to be okay. I feel like crying and opening up my tightly filled bottle of emotions, but there seems like there's no listener to spare. 

I will listen to you, 

But who is going to listen to me?