Hello to Myself... ...

What defines ME? What does ME stands for? 

Who am I suppose to be? Who am I? 

So many questions, but not one of them can be answered by the person itself, which is ME. Yup, the fact is glaring in my face. I've lost my true self, or rather I have never known myself and see myself clearly. 

So I have decided to post something just out of the ordinary. The idea actually came from a song's lyrics - Hello to Myself (Dream High 2 OST) *no copyright infringement intended 

"Hello" is just a simple greeting spoken to everyone, yet it could mean so much more.

Have you tried saying hello to yourself? not your present self, but the self of your future? I know it sounds absurd and crazy, but wouldn't it be great if you could? It could answer all your questions and insecurities that the future is meant to hold.  On top of that, through just a simple hello, I could find my true self, if it is even there to begin with... ...
So here I am, lost in the world of ME, writing to myself, hoping to get an answer, finally. Here it goes... ...

Hello, this is April 2014, on a cold rainy day.

Where are you - how close are you,

To the dream that I've dreamed repeatedly of?

The one dream that seems impossible to reach.

Here, I'm still falling and crying again.  

I'm hurt and tired, having no strength to get up.

I have lost myself, lost the will to dream,

But you would probably see me and smile.

Hello to myself,

Will you comfort me by saying don't cry?

Hello to myself,

Will you tell me that I can do it?

Hello - Don't cry, Hello - Get up.

How are you - how is it like to fulfil your dream?

Doesn't it hurt when you pinch yourself?

Is it possible that the dreams has reached reality?

Or is it sometimes boring because it's a become a normal routine for you?

If you ever get lonely or tired, will you remember the dream that you begin with?

Hello to myself,

Will you think of me here and smile?

Hello to myself,

Will you be happy to the point where your heart overflows?

Hello - Smile, Hello - Just like that.

Hello to myself,

Will you not forget me, who used to dream?

Will you still lose me, a fact that never changed... ...

    

All questions but no answers... ...I guess I have to wait to find out.