Have you ever thought that who you really are and what is the true you?
Are you behaving the way you deem yourself to be?
What is it like, wanting to be yourself, true to heart?
I want to be my true self, be like my friends, like any other youth. But I'm afraid. I want to be like ordinary teenagers, do what they like to do, jumping around in rock concerts and being happy and high. But I can't bring myself to do it. Something is holding me back, I can't get free from it. I don't know what is it and how long it will last. It is making me irritatedly unusual. I hate it, I hate myself.
Maybe it is due to the controlled life I have lead. There wasn't much freedom, permission was required before I do anything. I didn't have the free will to decide. Every decision made even come with a price or compromise. I am like a star in the sky who wants to shine as brightly as I can, but not able to, because I'm afraid I stand out too much.
How I wish there was someone daring enough to penetrate through this transparent wall and rescue me. I know what is going on outside, but I can't join them.
Rescue me please!
