I've got to say what's on my mind...it's driving me crazy
Mid Years are over, ugh, results. June Holidays are here, as if.
What makes up a teenager's life?
People usually say emotions, love, hatred, break ups, bad influence....
But they forgotten about stress, from both themselves and others around them.
Mid year exam papers are coming back one by one, full of red and unsightly marks glaring in your face. I tried my best didn't I? It's all that counts isn't it? But, what if my best is the worst, below expectations, not up to standard? What can I do? I'm totally lost in this dark world and I don't know how to escape? It is like suffocating you till your death bed, it does not leave you even for one minute. You do not even dare to tell your results to your parents. They won't understand, will they? They will always see it is your fault, you didn't study enough, you didn't do enough practice, you didn't focus, it's your "effort" that cause it to be this way.
I feel like screaming to them. Face it! I am the stupidest out of all the children. I have broken the "record", getting the Ungraded three in a row. People around me are doing so much better than me. Why can't I too? I'm panicking, in the desperation mode now. What can I do?
What if history repeats itself? What if I fail my promotional examinations? What if I get retained? What if I am a disgrace to the family, a disappointment to my parents? What if...
I feel like screaming my lungs out, but, I can't. Something is holding me back. I feel like crying a river of tears and desperation, but, I can't. Something is controlling the flow, not even a single tear can escape. I feel like giving up totally. What is the use of continuing and persevering on if your best is like the worst?
