Thoughless & Heartless... ...

Looks like I have forsaken you for a long time.
Mid years are nearly over, there is one more paper to go. Yay!

Some people are just..ugh.
They don't think about others, they don't care what people feel. They don't put themselves into shoes of others and try to understand their feelings and why they act this way. They always think they are right. They just plain "i don't give a damn" kind of thing.
Heartless and inconsiderate people they are. You just cannot get along with these people, no matter how much time you have spent with him/her or by how much you understand them. They are hard to please and cannot be easily satisfied. They do not listen to other opinions, they will interrupt you went you are talking. If you get angry with them, it's of no use. They'll somehow not see the fault of the argument lies with them, by pushing all the blame to you. They are never in the wrong, that's what they think. ugh, irritating!

So, here's the approach I adopted to deal with such people, though it's not entirely full proof.
When they say something, neither agree or disagree. Just go with anything. You don't rebut their point, they got nothing to say.
Keep conversations short, you would not know what it may lead to, usually unpleasant.
Don't ever speak when they are talking. Just live with it, pretending to listen is the best way to go. Just hope they will run out of things to say quickly(these people are fond of telling unwanted and meaningless stories of what they did and what you should do too).

Ugh to these people. Can't they just get out of this imperfect world?

I'm lost... ...What do i do?

Burdens. Workloads. Stress. Tiredness.
Everything is coming in at one short. Exams are coming...more tests, more quizzes...
More FAILURES... More HOMEWORK... More DEPRESSION.

Mid years are around the corner, next week. I'm still not prepared for it. I have so much revision and learning to do...but I do not know where to start from. I am immersed and lost in the never ending piles of work and revision I need to do but haven't done. I'm drowning, but I do not know how to save myself.

I'm lost, alone, don't where or what should I do...

INTERACTION with people... ...

Supposedly another long weekend.
No school on Monday.
But it doesn't really make a difference.

Have you ever felt that you behave and belong to another world, just not the one you are in? Or might as well say that you can't fit in and interact with people in your age group. I interact better with people who are much younger than me. I somehow don't feel at ease when I'm with people my age in school or even with my sisters who are three years younger than me. I find it easier to play and understand children and toddlers. Maybe because my mind set is that of the kid...or because I'm childish and behave like one.

But it is tough. You will spent more time in school or at home where people are around your age. You want to get to know them better but you don't dare. It's hard to get close to them, you do not know what to say.

Ugh. Why is leading my life so tough.

Disapointment & me... ...

Disappointed. Why did it turn out this way? Why?
So much effort was put in... ...what when wrong?

I feel like crying. It's so unfair. Why do people not judge us on effort, but only judge us on the quality of our end product. It is the learning process and experience that counts, isn't it? I dislike it when people judge me just from one encounter. What do they know about me?

Why put in so much hope in ourselves, only to fail later in the future? It makes us feel a thousand times worst. Sure, it's for our own good, all the efforts are not a wasted as we will be able to learn from them in the future.

I shouldn't be upset. We did our best, we tried till we drop without a single complaint. Who cares what they say. We'll be ourselves as we are special. hah. They are noobs, they can't see the speciality and passion in us. hah. Opinions differ, so what for we listen to them, after all believing in yourself is the best. But why do I still feel the disappointment?

Lies from a liar... ...

Labour Day today.
A supposedly holiday, but my brain is in overload.

So much for planning things to do today.
And everything was ruin by one person. Why must he wants things his way? Why can't he listen to us just for wants? Why can't he thinks about others and question in doubt? He always assumes that people will think like him-the selfish, hot tempered, self centered ways. I really can't stand this type of people. They only know how to ruin other's life and happiness, that's their job.

So what am I going to do today? There are so many things to do and I don't know where to start. ugh. Life's really tough. What happened to those carefree moments and happiness that seem possible? They are so near yet so far... It just seem impossible in such 'tragic' times...